My stomach is in knots!! I am waffling between a positive outlook and dread. I see the light at the end of the tunnel and an alligator infested pit that blocks my way. How can these things co-exist simultaneously? More importantly, where is my ability and authority to choose the one that truly serves me… (The one without the carnivorous reptiles!!)

For many of us, this is a time of great energetic shifts. A move towards Oneness, unity, and a more global, planet friendly perspective. Away from separation and duality and the world view of domination which thrives on fear, greed, and manipulation. So why should I be surprised, that energetically, I am experiencing both the up and down sides of a situation! Don’t we all experience these planetary shifts and changes in our own physical being – first?

There is another aspect of this too… I realize that part of me wants to envision a future of Oneness, that doesn’t have all the trappings of being human! No pesky constricting emotions such as fear, anxiety, boredom, etc… Just the “good” ones. Which of course brings me back to our current world view (and my own too) of duality. Where we have this incredible desire and

need to classify things as good/bad, right/wrong, positive/negative. What will it actually be like when the energy of duality is replaced with Oneness. We will still have thoughts and emotions. We will still desire some things while not enjoying others. So how will it be different? How will I deal with conflicting situations or events that come at me at the same time?

I imagine that part of the answer to this lies in the heart (and the rest in the gut). We are part of an end-time, where the mind is valued more than the heart. Where the ability to multi-task and get things done is more important than knowing if all the things on our to-do-lists are actually aligned with our personal dreams and desires. We let external forces (jobs, friends, family, bosses, clients, credit scores, account balances, etc…) determine where we put our focus and give our valuable energies.

My dream for 2012, is that each of us puts ourselves first. That we nurture, care and tend to the only thing that we truly bring to the party – Ourselves. That we stay connected to our hearts and as we experience life we understand that bright lights and alligators sometimes DO go together!

I hope you have a magical year!