I am on a roll right now… I can feel the movement towards something new, something that wants to be known, seen, felt and/or expressed. I have not figured all of this out yet, however, I can tell you it has to do with knowing myself better.
Part of this started last week when I was feeling like I was straddling optimism and fear. A big part of me wanted to pull in old stories from the past that could keep me company with familiar thoughts and emotions. At the same time, there wasn’t enough of a connection with the past to find any comfort. I realized then, and even wrote about needing to connect with my heart (and my gut) to feel what was right for me in that moment.
It is this checking in with self that has stayed with me all week. As I have pondered and mulled this over, I realize that now, more than ever, it is critical to make sure we are current with our own personal desires and dreams.
The way I see it, so many people’s lives have been turned upside down in the past few years, that even if I were not one of them (and I am!), I know so many who have, it is obvious that this chaos and the confusion it creates, affects EVERYONE! Whether there was a personal job loss or foreclosure, or dramatic reduction of income or savings… there is so much of this across the globe that we can’t help but feel the turmoil.
This turmoil has caused a lot of us to reevaluate what is really important to us. We have had to shift focus and priorities, to the point where the questions are not about what we want externally… (house, car, vacation destination, clothes). To what is important or what we want internally (peace, happiness, comfort, freedom). These are completely different self-inquiries. And the examination of these internal desires versus external, shift our thoughts and emotions AND how we respond to them.
For many of us, certainly me… We are more focused on being who we are, and less on the doing. However, if we don’t slow down and really examine what is important to us, how much of what we are creating is based on our old comfort zone of doing? The example I shared in “The Magic of Crystals” workshop this week was about a house my husband and I watched being constructed a few years ago in Paradise Valley with beautiful architecture and amazing views. It was a “dream” house. A month or so ago, because he runs his own Real Estate Company, Fito was forwarded a listing for this home. Needless to say, he forwarded it to me.
I had already begun to visualize and imagine myself in this home before I even realized that this actually is no longer my dream. The home is still beautiful, the views are still breathtaking… But I am not looking for or trying to create a bigger place to live. I have to catch up with myself and my new paradigm that bigger isn’t always better. Mind you, this is not about wanting a bigger house being a bad thing. It’s a great thing if that is what you desire. The important thing is checking in to see if the people, places and things you are giving your energies to, are still right for YOU!