“When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive – to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.”
Marcus Aurelius, Roman Emperor and Stoic philosopher
Most mornings I wake up feeling so grateful to be alive and here for another day! I get to spend time with the people I love and appreciate the beauty of life. I get to love and be loved! However, I’ve noticed that I’ve been feeling cranky and really old stuff from the past has been surfacing! Yuck! I’m still grateful to be here but I realize that we’re in the cycle of a new full moon and entering the Winter Solstice. As I noticed the forming moon through my bedroom window I felt the Lunar energy! Many of you are sensitive to these energies too.
This moon before the Winter Solstice is also known as the Cold Moon and is the longest of the year. Definitely the weather has shifted everywhere. Hello, Winter! More than the time of year, though, I realize the symbology represents frozen surfaces and yet there is a lot that happens below the surface. Seeds are dormant, animals hibernate, others are resting and preparing for Spring. This is a time for deep rest and stillness. It’s an introspective time and an invitation to grow in inner awareness. So I chose to sit and explore even though I didn’t know what would surface. Tony Schwartz, Journalist and author reminds us to “Let go of certainty. The opposite isn’t uncertainty. It’s openness, curiosity and a willingness to embrace paradox, rather than choose up sides. The ultimate challenge is to accept ourselves exactly as we are, but never stop trying to learn and grow.” Surprises can happen!
As I dove deep into my inner world I discovered I had some deeply held feelings that I thought I had worked through in the past. Old shadows of fear, grief, guilt, and uncertainty appeared. At first I began to judge myself for still holding onto these feelings. My negative ego said, “You’re a healer, why haven’t you taken care of these?” Really? Whew, so not helpful! I decided it was time to send it on a vacation for awhile! LOL Then I asked for help through my prayer and meditation. I said, “Help me transform and transmute these feelings back to love please! I’m ready to release them for good! This isn’t who I am!” I feel like the light of this moon is shining bright on these deep shadows and I’m able to explore them with more compassion! I know that I’m not alone and neither are you!
Along with the Full moon energies the holidays can bring up a lot of stuff too! Ask yourself as I’m doing, “What do I really need?” It’s ok to be gentle with yourself, rest, read a book, hibernate, turn off external stimulation, and ask for help if needed. I accept that now is a beautiful invitation to BE still and explore my inner world. It’s up to me when to engage with others. Eckhart Tolle, Spiritual teacher and author reminds us to “Accept – then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it . . . This will miraculously transform your life.” The choice to act and respond to your invitations are up to you! Give yourself permission to rest and renew when you can without feeling guilty! Sending lots of love to each one of you. Wishing you a peaceful holiday if you celebrate!
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