I wonder if sometimes our greatest periods of growth come when we ‘give up’?
I am a thinker. I analyze, evaluate, plot and plan. And sometimes, none of it works out. In fact, sometimes it is as if the exact opposite of what I was strategizing seems to manifest.
My mind can’t fathom how I got things so wrong. Suddenly, it simply gives up!
That is how I am feeling right now or at least I’m close. There are still a few how can I “save the day” scenarios running through my mind. But they are feeble at best.
In truth, I’m at the point of “What’s the point?”
And in the dense mist of fog that surrounds these energies of giving up; I hear a faint whisper. A subtle almost imperceptible voice that is calling me to be present. To forget the planning and future-tripping. A susurration that invites me to experience this moment. A clarion call for nothingness.
And in those moments when that peaceful guidance from within can be heard, I am reminded that each and every experience, whether I view it as a challenge or an opportunity, is all mine. It is for me. It is a gift of this human experience and it is here to serve me.
Those plans, ideas or dreams that have begun to deteriorate were not for my highest good. Even when they felt perfect and aligned. It was the dreaming of them that was important, not the reality. Or perhaps they represent something that wants to materialize, before (or after!) it’s time.
Letting them go, allowing the internal destroyer to have its way, and calling back the energies I have been sending to that future dream.., are what is called for now. These are the times when the proverbial “door” closes. It is time to sit and be present. To wait for, allow and receive the next open door or window. In its own time.
And in these moments there is a closeness and comfort that is available and offered by the Divine. An assurance that all is well. All is as it should be. We are surrounded by Love.
For me, I feel my own growth every time I experience this knowing and awareness. That I am right where I am suppose to be. That regardless of how much life or a particular situation seems in upheaval, in truth, it is in perfect harmony. I simply need to set down my demand for it to look or be a particular way. It is time to set down control.
For the umpteenth time.., set down control.
And I am getting better at this. No.., not a Master (yet!). But better at it. Recognizing the pattern, releasing it, and trusting that everything happens for a reason.., and it is ALWAYS for me…, not to me. One door closes.
With Light, Love, and Laughter