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Do you ever feel the weight of “getting it right”?

For a while now, I’ve had this sensation of something being different.  But it’s been hard to figure out exactly what that really means.

One thing that has been apparent though is that there is nothing to “get right”.  That means it (getting it right) also carries no weight.

Often, when we are in the middle of a situation or the circumstances of our lives, it can be hard to understand the impact. Meaning, we don’t understand the benefits or toll a situation is taking, until it’s behind us.

Then we have the benefit of hindsight.

What is different for me right now is that I’m not trying to figure out what this current energetic shift is all about.  And.., if I’m not trying to figure it out, I’m not trying to get it right.

‘Getting it right’ is a form of perfectionism. And perfectionism is an attempt to control.  And..,I have lots of experience with trying to control the people, situations, and circumstances of my life.

This is true even when the changes or shifts are energetic.  Meaning, they are manifesting but have not been realized yet.  That is how things feel for me right now.

It is different when we are envisioning and imagining something new.  Then we are aware of why or what is evolving.  In those cases, we understand why we are experiencing the sensation of something being different.  We are more invested in having it unfold in a particular way.

I believe we experience unexpected shifts in our lives all the time.  I know I do.  The problem is, When it is not something we’re expecting, we try to put context around it. We try to understand, shape, influence, expand, etc.  Even though we have no idea what it is even about.

The problem with forcing context around a sensation we don’t understand is that oftentimes we limit it.  We make it conform to past situations that we remember.  Even when they are not necessarily related to anything that has happened before.  We limit the possibilities and potential.

I know when I stay out of my own way, possibilities are expanded.  But possibilities are an unknown and we all know how uncomfortable the unknown can be.

There are times I wonder if I will ever find balance in my life. This is one of those times.

I guess I’ve known for years that I have a tendency to get extremely focused on one thing at a time. This was especially true when it came to work. I loved solving problems and figuring out solutions. Give me a project and a deadline, and I was in my element.

Of course my mind thrived on the stimulation and it created a feeling or sense of purpose. It didn’t hurt that I was good at it, so I also loved the recognition or attention that came from it.

It wasn’t until the project or problem was behind me, that I would realize I had stopped exercising and my body was feeling off. My preferred activity at the time was running. So I would start training for for a half marathon. I would put all my focus on building my stamina and endurance.

By the time, I completed the event, I would realize I had not seen my friends for weeks. Between work and training, something had to give. But hey.., I had reached my goal. It seemed like an okay trade off at the time.

It wasn’t until I was in my forties that I realized how much I prioritized and even compartmentalized my life. It is also when I first recognized that finding balance in my life was challenging for me.

Now a days, I don’t think of it as being out of balance with work, exercise, or family and friends. Instead I think of being out of balance mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually.

Most of us have a default comfort zone. We of course all think, feel, move, or reflect everyday. But there is usually one of these, where we feel most at home. Mine is mental. Give my mind something to chew on and I can be quite content.

The problem for me is that this is SO comfortable for me.., it is easy to forget other aspects of my life that are just as important. I shut down or at the minimum suppress my emotions. (I will deal with those later!). I make food and exercise choices I wouldn’t if I was paying attention. (I need to grab something quick to eat… or I don’t have time for a walk right now…). And self -reflection and awareness takes a back seat.

Until it doesn’t.

The fact that life-balance is something I strive to create with greater ease is not new information. Figuring out how to find that balance is. Still.

It seems as if everything in my personal world, is in a state of transformation.  Probably the biggest and most obvious is a home remodel.  We are basically at the end of this particular project. So of course the sense of transformation is at its highest.

But when does transformation actually begin?

I believe it is in the dreaming and imagining stage.  In fact, it is probably before.  When our subconscious minds long for whatever is next for us.  We then begin to respond to the longing, making choices that support this new internal desire.

We give it to our mind and begin to visualize and start setting intentions.  We plot, plan, and basically start to figure things out.  We begin to become more emotionally invested as it materializes or takes shape in our psyche.

The part of this that has me intrigued right now is the desire for change.  The desire for something different.  The desire for more.

I feel changed by all the physical transformation around me.  Yet, it feels as if it is more accurate to say that my desire for internal transformation has reshaped or transformed my physical world.

The reason that this seems like an important distinction for me is because it feels as if I am a different person than I was a short time ago.  Not better (although hopefully), just different.  Everything feels new and fresh with endless possibilities.   So it is easy to look to the physical surroundings and think that these changes are responsible for the differences.

But there’s a part of me who intuitively senses that this transformation is internal.  With the real world now reflecting my own evolution.

I think we are potentially in a constant state of transformation.  We are here to evolve.  Some are big (new relationship, having a child, job or career change, buying or selling a home, divorce, remodel, starting a business, moving to a new location, etc.) while are others are smaller.  But they all offer an opportunity to harness the energies of transformation.

We create these opportunities (whether knowingly, or not) to become current.  To update our own personal awareness.  To become even more of who we came here to be.

During the most chaotic part of this remodel project (ps… there is always chaos with change!) every daily routine was disrupted.  Things that I had done without much thought, now had to be figured out anew… or just had to be dropped or put on hold.

When I was in the thick of it, I couldn’t wait to get back to my old routine.  Sometimes, I felt as if I was desperate for the familiar.

But in truth, on the other side of all this change, a lot of those things I felt as if I was missing; no longer fit.  In fact, it has triggered a review process of letting go.  And… stepping into new.  I have been contemplating this a lot, and feel grateful for the energetic support of external changes.  I guess you could say I’m riding the wave of transformation.

“None of us knows what might happen even the next minute, yet still we go forward. Because we trust. Because we have faith.”
Paul Coelho, Brazilian lyricist and novelist

How are you feeling this week? There’s so much going on in the world right now. As I’ve explored my own feelings and reflected, I’ve felt a bit discombobulated! I asked, during my quiet time, “What’s my role and how can I contribute and make a difference.” So much is out of my control! After taking a few deep breaths and talking about things with my husband I realized that when I can’t control what’s happening the only thing I can control is how I respond to it! I know that peace begins within me first. I asked myself, “Am I ready to throw in the towel and give up?” The response was quick, “No!” I choose to continue going forward and evolve. I trust that there are enough people awakening on this planet that things will get better. Maybe it’s not happening as fast as I would like but I believe that things will get better! How? Each one of us can contribute and create more positive outcomes and a new world creation through our meditation and prayers that send healing unconditional love to this earth and all life. Imagine your energy, during this time, connecting with someone or group who needs the spark of hope within them ignited. Allow them to be seen and heard through your connection. Share your hope with them! We are One after all!

The Hunter Moon energy activated October 28th supports you as well. It’s a time for releasing old patterns and embracing new beginnings. It’s a time for more inner reflection and healing old wounds as well. You might ask, during your quiet time, “Are my thoughts, emotions, and actions aligned? Am I in integrity? Is my well of hope deep within me dry or is it full? Am I ready to reach for more hope since I’m the creator of my life and life choices? What is my role in helping others? How do I choose to respond to the challenges in my life and world? Have I made room for something new in my life that brings me joy?” Whew, maybe take some time to rest and relax. Read an uplifting book, walk in nature, or take a nap! Take a little time to rejuvenate you! Former Prime minister and Israeli politician Golda Meir has said, “Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.”

I love an image I’m getting right now of an infinite number of unseen angelic and inter-Galactic cheerleaders yelling, “Keep going! Have faith! You’re not alone! Don’t give up! You’re powerful! The earth and your world need your strength and love!” Roman author, military commander, and philosopher Pliny the Elder has said that, “Hope is the pillar that holds up the world. Hope is the dream of a waking man.” The invitation to visit your well of hope is there this week. Please take a few moments out of your busy schedules and draw upon it if you feel like an extra positive boost is needed. Draw upon it if you’re willing to share it. You’re powerful, loved, and amazing.

I will continue to hold space for each of you! I’m sending lots of love! Enjoy your week and please be safe if you and your loved ones Trick or Treat!

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