I have invested a lot of time and energy into getting to know myself as a spiritual being. It started as a part of what was likely a mid-life crisis. One that I didn’t realize I was in the middle of!
I had a good life. Good job, friends, travel, home, and stuff. By all accounts, I was “successful”. But in the middle of all this success… there was still something missing. A longing. I was living my life…, but to what purpose?
I had spent so much time trying to get where I was going, I forgot to ask ‘why’ I was going!
I guess in someways it was societal… simply part of the time or generation I’m part of. My life looked good on paper because that is what we were taught or saw valued. Either way, I found myself in search of greater meaning.
For the first time (consciously), I began looking inside for answers. Uncovering beliefs and attitudes that affected my every decision. Searching for meaning by dissecting my thoughts and feelings and their origins. Unmasking fear. Understanding the origins of pride and arrogance. Coming to terms with the magnificence and the mediocre of my own reality creation.
Actually… maybe it was finally understanding that we all have ownership and responsibility for what we create in our day-to-day lives.
I have been so invested in the pursuit of purpose and finding the spiritual being within; that it’s possible I missed that I actually “found myself”.
The journey of self-discovery can be amazing. It can also seem never ending. But is that true?
I have become so use to searching, that searching has become part of my identity.
Today, as I set to write, a thought entered my mind. “What if there is nothing left to look for or find, and now you just get to be who you’ve become”?
My first reaction was a resounding “No!”
I could feel the part of me who wanted to know: “Who am I if I am not seeking spiritual growth”?
The answer came almost as quickly.
I am a spiritual being. It is about living with and from this knowledge. Taking the experiences and awarenesses of this internal exploration and putting it to use in everyday life. Trusting what I know and living my own truths.
Because isn’t that what a spirituality is all about? Finding the answers about our Divine Nature by looking within. Finding our connection to All.., by feeling and sensing it internally. Knowing God is not something we are separate from… but something we are part of.
I don’t have to search for this truth… I know it.
Now is time to live it!
With Light, Love, and Laughter