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What is the significance of getting knots in your stomach? How does it help and how does it serve you? In several different books I have read that these kind of experiences are our unresolved emotional situations from childhood, looking to be reframed, released or integrated into our current adult life circumstances. On one level, I completely “get it”! On another… It seems like when something is happening in our lives that triggers this kind of physical, visceral reaction in our bodies… It can be a little hard to “detach” from the offending event, to bring to the surface anything that might be unresolved! Like I want to add MORE, to an already intense discomfort! BUT… This is exactly what I did this week. I got new information about a situation in my life that I am dealing with. In order for it to turn out the way I want it to, I have to justify, defend and negotiate around other things I have set-up or created… without compromising them. My stomach was a net of knots! |
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However, I stopped in the middle of my fretting… And decided to look at what old triggers were in this for me. What were the other circumstances in my life where I had the same sensations or physical constrictions. What was there for me to learn from this? It was hard, because I had to take the focus on the current situation, which my mind really wanted to play with… And sit with the discomfort. You know what??? I know this discomfort well. I have this physical experience of knots in the stomach often enough to be intimate with it. It may only happen a few times a year ~ But over 50+ years… that is a lot of familiarity! I realized, it wasn’t important to recall what the past events were. It was important to be still with the discomfort. To observe what was going on for/with me. To see what was “real” and what was “true”. To my surprise these weren’t the same things. I could feel a very guarded adolescent energy, that was holding on for dear life… Like somehow, all the adolescent dreams for the future were at risk, if things didn’t go my way! Beneath that, the essence of the inner child. The one who feels vulnerable and doesn’t know who will protect them. Layers of emotionally charged events from the past. None of which were tied to specific memories… However felt real and present. I felt this wave of compassion for these earlier aspects of self.., that are still on guard, still weary that their dreams could come tumbling down around them if they don’t do something “just right”. And this compassion spread to my current situation as well. Suddenly, I could release the knots in my stomach, recognize that I have some tasks to do.., however, that this current situation too would pass. And that whatever happens from this… It is perfect for me. How about you? Are you familiar with any knots? Are you releasing emotional charges that no longer serve you? Time to honor and integrate the emotional energies from the past. Today is a good day to untie the knots!
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