Words seem inadequate to describe the feelings I’ve experienced this week. Shock, horror, sorrow, anger, helplessness, judgment, hope, and yes even love! A wide range of emotions have been felt by me and others. The continued mass shootings in our country and harm by and to other human beings seems unreal and yet it is a reality. As I’ve reflected on how I’ve felt this week I’ve asked, “What’s mine to know or do about it?” At times I felt overwhelmed. Other times I just wanted to ignore it. And then, as I breathed and felt myself calming, I chose to lean more into Grace and be open and willing to receive guidance.

Once I focused more inward I was reminded that our outer world is a reflection of our inner world. So what does this mean to me? An opportunity to look at and re-evaluate what I value and cherish has been presented. An opportunity to change and be willing to do what’s necessary to change has also been presented. For each one of us the answers will be different. 

Peace and change must begin within me first before anything around me changes. I ask, “What prejudices, biases, hate, self-judgment do I continue to hold within me?” If any are revealed I ask for help to change and transform them so that I can become more loving, accepting, and compassionate of me and others. I find that often there are a few surprises when I do this. As I’ve become more aware and conscious in my personal growth for over 20 years I’ve learned that shedding of old habits and beliefs happens in layers. After a time only residue remains to be released. 

If something unexpected comes up, as you explore your inner world, that makes you uncomfortable it’s ok. Resist judging yourself. Allow yourself to feel the discomfort as you ask for help to release it. I believe that until we shift our own prejudices, biases, hate, and self-judgment it is almost impossible to shift our external environment. This doesn’t mean engaging in activities to support change are meaningless. I feel it’s important to let your voice be heard and expressed in ways that are meaningful to you. It only means that a deeper level of commitment to the activities to improve things will be felt once we’re all in, so to speak! Are you doing things out of a sense of duty and obligation or because you “get” to do them from your heart?

My heart goes out to all of the victims, families and communities who are suffering and mourning. I’m encouraged by the hope and love that is being expressed in support of them. My heart goes out to each one of you and all of humanity as well. I look forward to the day when hate and violence ends!

The question I’m reflecting on right now is this, “If we are one from the same God/Source that is LOVE, regardless of how different we look from one another, then If violence is committed by one of us then what part do each one of us play?” Does this make sense? What are your thoughts?

Gisela and I are excited to offer a healing evening with the powerful and loving Messengers of Light on Tuesday, August 13, 2019, from 6:30 – 8:30p at Storm Wisdom. Seating is limited so please reserve your space early.