How do you know what is really right for you in any given moment? I am not talking about the things you are already familiar with… I mean the things that are presented that are new.
For me, a person or situation will present them/itself and I am not sure if it is aligned with what I am trying to create or not. On the surface it seems right or on paper it looks good. However, many times there is this little unsettled feeling that is also there. A question mark that is quietly
hanging around trying to get my attention.
I remind myself that how something resonates with me is important… I also know how important it is to be discerning. On the other hand, it seems like I really question whether or not I am just being judgmental OR that it is unfair not to give someone or something a chance. I go round and round in my mind, until I finally give in and just settle on a yes or no. The truth is I have not used my personal power. Instead, I just abdicated my preference. Usually so that someone else will have or get their needs met.
Invariably, the Universe brings these situations back to me in a way that it is clear that I always knew what the outcome would be. That little unsettled feeling was a nugget of opportunity to know my preference and what would work for me, that I dismissed or talked myself out of. Only to have it come to fruition. I would REALLY like to be more honoring of what is aligned with my highest good. I know there is nothing wrong with learning these lessons the hard way. However at this point, this is a lesson that could be tattooed on my forehead!
I am aware that for me personally, much of my back and forth or indecision is about wanting to appear like a “good” or “nice” guy. I want to be liked! On the other hand, these are the kind of situations where, when it is all said and done… I may not be perceived as either good or nice! Or, sometimes even worse, I am considered nice or good by someone whose approval or perception of me offers little comfort!
I am ready to be done with this lesson and have it behind me! Of course I know that as soon as we make this kind of declaration… The Universe will present the ideal opportunities to know the truth of this declaration! Keep your fingers crossed… Once again, I am going in!