Boy, I had a couple of days this week where I was really wallowing in it. I felt defeated, challenged, overwhelmed, and unsure of what to do. I knew I was in a funk but couldn’t seem to do anything about it. Feeling powerless was in there too.
It was easy to point to a couple of things going on in my life and say, “There’s the blame.” But blame is a false emotion. It is a deflection away from what is really going on with us. Most of the time, we reach for blame because it is easier to look for the culprit or a fault in someone or something else.
Let’s face it, no one likes feeling like a victim. <raises hand>
But because I could not shake off these feelings, that is exactly where I was. At first, I kept trying to refocus and redirect my energies. I kept trying to look on the bright side or even figure out the worst that could happen (as a way to know “this too shall pass”).
Instead, I decided I just needed to be in a funk. Instead of fighting it—because as we all know, “what we resist, persists”—I decided to give myself permission to just feel off. Not an easy choice in the moment. But I also knew that nothing I was dealing with was, in and of itself, the creator of all my angst.
I have had the same astrologer for over 35 years now. She has provided so much great counsel over the years. One of the things that always stands out for me is her ability to interpret the natural cycles of life, the big ones called “transits”. But there are smaller ones too.
Almost every time we have ever had a session, she has identified times when, perhaps for a day or two, Fito and I should find independent activities or getaways from each other, because for those days, we are not as likely to see eye-to-eye. It helps to see that during those times, we are not struggling with each other; instead, it is a natural cycle of life where our energies are just not aligned. And for the sake of peace and harmony, it always helps to know.
I know this. I live and breathe this most of the time. And other times, like this past week, it feels as if this is the first time I have ever experienced it and there is nothing I can do about it.
That is, until it’s past and hindsight offers clearer vision.
I am glad this funk is behind me because I have a ton of stuff to get done. I am happy to report that our new Storm Wisdom space looks awesome painted. We are installing new lights, and the flooring is taking shape. Soon we will begin to transition, with lots of activity over the next few weeks. Notice above that the biggest parts of our customer service counter is no longer there. Everything is gonna get crazy!
How about you; have you ever felt trapped in a funk? Do you have a method for moving through it that works for you? Next time it happens, try giving yourself permission to feel it fully. You might find, like I did, that acceptance is the first step to moving past it.