In Awe of the Universe

I love how the Universe always seems to line up to support us! For the past couple of weeks, I have been trying to decide what direction to take this blog.  You see ever since I returned from doing the Spanish Immersion program in Mexico, I have not been in much of a mood for writing.  In fact, things have shifted so much for me that I am not sure what I am feeling…, other than a sense of “in-between”. On the one hand I am more grateful for my life than I have ever been, and feel very present.  On the other, I am not sure what I am doing or what is next.  This means things are great and awkward / uncomfortable at the same time. Part of me wants to figure out “what is next” as quickly as possible.  Then the logical me will be content because I have a plan!  Another part, the one that appears to be getting my attention, wants me to be patient and simply BE in and with the unknown.  To learn to be comfortable in the Void. At the same time.., Victoria is finding her voice anew.  She has been a writer, teacher, guide and healer for a long time.  Yet,  she is at a point of personal expansion that appears to be about greater visibility and shared intimacy.  The experience of writing weekly and sharing it with you over this past summer, has given her new insights into her own journey and the direction she wants to go! Change is happening for both of us.., in slightly different ways!...

Things That Didn’t Work Out

Do you ever wonder how or why things turn out the way they do? What turn, decision or detour changed the direction of your life? That is where my thoughts have been recently. For many years I felt like I was in charge of my destiny. That I could control the outcomes and circumstances of my life. There were even extended periods of time when, what I was ‘planning’ and what was actually happening seemed to be completely aligned. It reinforced my belief that I was in charge. But now when I reflect on the journey so far, I realize there is no way I could have predicted this outcome. It is so much more than I even knew to dream. Life is filled with challenges and obstacles. It is also filled with smooth sailing and fast lanes. There are just as many highways as there are deadend streets and off-road trails. Sometimes it feels like the road your on has a red light at every intersection. Then suddenly it is smooth sailing and every light turns green as you approach. It is easy to celebrate the journey when everything is flowing and aligned with ‘the plan’. Yet it is our reactions to the road blocks and rough patches that tend to define us. They can motivate us or strengthens our resolve, send us into a downward spiral, or anything in between. But how many of these rough patches or detours are the experiences that really shape the long term richness of our lives? A couple of weeks ago while I was writing one of these weekly blog posts,...

Changing Perceptions 

Perception is a powerful filter.  We all see the world through a personal series of overlays or transparencies that are so embedded in our daily existence, that most of the time, we forget (or don’t know) that they’re there. Our perceptions frame every experience and determine how we view the situations and events of our lives.  They become the lenses and gels from which we view every experience.  Focusing on and coloring the things we encounter and immediately aligning and defining them based on our beliefs. Our perceptions seem real.  So well-established, that oftentimes, they seem impermeable. Probably because they are forged from our past experiences, memories, relationship dynamics, culture, etc… Our beliefs, attitudes, values, all melded together to provide a world view that is unique to each one of us! We may feel as if we have found a tribe that seems to look through the same filters.  But if we really took the time to get into the specifics, we would find that there are always differences.  Sometimes subtle, sometimes stark.  We are all part of the same continuum… yet invariably unique. Think of when you have recalled a childhood experience that is vivid and tangible for you; yet the friend or sibling you shared it with can’t remember it or has a completely different memory or view of what happened.  Two different perceptions of the same event. Our perceptions are so much apart of us, they are almost impossible to experience as separate.  Almost. For those who choose to winnow the limiting layers of beliefs, patterns, and habits that influence our decision making.., we often find...

Someone’s Feeling Blessed

I turned 60 this week! If I’m completely honest, there’s apart of me that wonders how this is even possible! Wasn’t 40 just a few minutes ago? At the same time, turning 60 is much easier than I might have imagined at earlier times in my life. As I’ve thought about this, I realize this is because “I fit in my life”. The who, what, how, where and why all make sense and feel right. As aligned as everything feels right now, it hasn’t always been the case. There were times when my life didn’t make sense. I wanted something different than my own reality. I was either chasing the dime or trying to be something I wasn’t. I spent a lot of time wishing “things were different” than how they actually were… or pursuing someone or something that wasn’t really available or in hindsight just not right for me. All of these situations lead to wasted time regretting what wasn’t and not enough time appreciating what was. This doesn’t mean life wasn’t good… or even that these situations didn’t have their benefits at the time. It simply means I wasn’t really very present. I was too busy trying to navigate or maybe more accurately… manipulate and control the future. But at 60, those times of angst, struggle, perceived disappointment or trivial pursuit make sense now. They are part of the journey that lead me to this point in time. This moment when all feels right in my world. There is a beauty and wisdom that comes with the passing years. The lessons learned along the way begin to...

Something Seems Different

Last week I said “I’m not the same person I was when I left”. This week I continue to be aware of this as I re-enter and integrate back into day-to-day life. It makes me wonder how many times in the past have I either rushed into something new without ever being aware of the shifts or changes; or avoided the call to something new altogether, because letting go of what was known was harder than stepping into a new unknown. I find myself contemplating a situation or opportunity, only to realize I am having an internal dialog about what is present, and how I use to deal with or approach something. Not necessarily big things either. In fact many of them are small and mundane. The best or simplest example is the food I eat. Most of us get into a routine or pattern of eating. There is nothing wrong with that. We go to the same restaurants or prepare the same meals. It is our comfort zone. Since returning, I’ve noticed that many of the food choices that were staples, simply are not doing it for me! Some, when I think of them, I get this sinking feeling of resistance. They just don’t appeal to me. This is where the dialog comes in. I try to convince myself that it is a viable option, because it is a dish “I use to make”, or it is a restaurant where “I use to eat”. I try to justify that at least it is simple and doesn’t require time. Efficiency has always held sway for me!! But there is...

A Fresh Start

Starting to write is harder than I thought it would be.  I have enjoyed the cathartic process of writing this weekly blog for over 9 years.  But a three month break has been pretty awesome too!  It has offered a level of freedom that was unexpected.  I am so grateful that Victoria was at a point in her own journey, that she was ready to reveal and share more of herself AND do it in the form of this weekly share. Thank You Victoria! I’ve been home for a couple of weeks now.  3 months in San Miguel was awesome and amazing.  Studying Spanish and living with a Mexican family along with other students was just what I was hoping for in many ways.  But I also realize I went with some faulty expectations.  Expectations that I didn’t even realize I had. About half way through, one of the instructors indicated it would take about 6 months of schooling, practice and experience to really feel comfortable or fluid in a second language.  I realized when I heard him say it, that I was expecting that to happen in just 3 months! After returning home, it’s pretty obvious that outside of the structure and context of going to school.., understanding, hearing and speaking Spanish on a daily basis is much more challenging than in the comfort of a classroom.  The classroom offered a great foundation.., but there is still so much to learn!  Thankfully Fito is a patient partner… who happens to love Spanish and languages in general!   Stepping out of your life for three months is an amazing...

Calling ME Home

I was having a conversation with a dear friend this week when I found myself overwhelmed with emotions. Sadness, regret, and disappointment. The tears took me by surprise.., and so did the accompanying awareness. I realized in that moment that so much of the personal and spiritual growth work I have done over the years has been about letting things go. Releasing old behaviors. Getting rid of old beliefs and biases. Clearing out the parts of me that were no longer aligned with where I saw myself going. Who I thought I was becoming. I took pride in ridding myself of the old and outdated aspects of myself, that going forward, I was sure I would never need again. Who knows how or why this particular conversation was such a strong catalyst for a new awareness. Who knows why it triggered a range of emotions that would make it almost impossible for me to speak. But in that instant I knew I had been betraying and shaming myself for being who I was… who I am. I had this flash of knowing that it was time to call back all aspects of my past. To embrace the younger versions of me that didn’t know the answers; who struggled with identity; who made choices or decisions with limited or incomplete knowledge; who pretended to be someone or something they weren’t. I had banished them to a place where I would not have to look at them again. Where who I was, who I am, and who I am becoming could live autonomously from one another. I took the powerful work...

Limbo

I have been feeling like I’m wasting time. I have about three weeks before I leave. It seems as if I am just waiting. In the meantime being in this state of limbo, seems like watching the clock tick. Limbo is uncomfortable. It goes against most of the messages we are given about who and how we’re suppose to be! We should be DOING something! I am amused by this, as I have been focusing on staying present for almost a year now. Yet the more I think I am present, the more it also feels like I am waiting… for the future to arrive. How do we simply stay in the moment without our minds playing games? How do we experience now, without triggering emotions? On the one hand it feels like I should be getting prepared. I should be packing, shopping, taking care of details. But it’s too early to pack.., shopping for what.., what details..? My mind is on full alert… and wants me to hurry up. And wait. For what? This is an exciting time. So many circumstances are aligning perfectly for something new to emerge. And there is nothing for me to do about that. I don’t need to rush it along, fill the void, pre-plan my experience. It just is. So I am practicing being in observer mode. Watching how my mind tries to stay busy. Paying attention to the emotions that ebb and flow. Witnessing my beliefs, attitude and values reveal themselves. All, while hanging out in limbo. Sometimes I think this time is confusing. Other times I think it is chaos....

Walk Into the Mystery

Last night was our 9th Anniversary Celebration at the store. It was awesome to see so many friends and clients and share a hug and a laugh. I really enjoyed myself… and also felt a stirring of something else. Knowing that my next adventure is starting, in less than a month, was front and center. I could feel the excitement of that… But there was something else too. Perhaps a new awareness of something happening beyond “my plan”. Many time throughout my life I have jumped into something for one reason, for something else to emerge. Whatever motivated me, was eclipsed by something more profound than I could have seen or imagined, before the experience began. Just before Fito and I started dating, I had signed up for a year long program of workshops and retreats. My motivation was to help process and heal a previous relationship from a year or two before. I was so focused on figuring out why something went wrong or failed, that I couldn’t see that something new and even more significant was emerging. In fact I tried to sabotage and resist our relationship for the first 6 or 9 months. Simply because I was so focused on the past. That series of workshops was absolutely perfect for me… but not for the reasons I had imagined. I may have achieved some of the healing I was looking for… but more importantly they were a catalyst for me to see and be different in what has become the most important relationship (for me) of this lifetime. I am not sure we would be approaching...

9 Years Worth of Thanks

Let me start by saying THANK YOU! If you are reading this, you have been part of Storm Wisdom’s journey! You are one of the reasons we get to have a three day celebration this coming weekend for our 9th Anniversary. We would not exist without you. From the bottom of my heart… Thank You! Every year as these anniversaries approach I reflect of where I’m am.., and where Storm Wisdom is in its journey. This year I am very aware that we are a physical location. We are brick and mortar. We occupy space. When I was starting this business… there was of course an awareness of creating a location. But back then it was much more conceptual… it was more about renting or leasing the space, designing and layout…, features and functions. This idea of creating a destination based on a physical location was all in my head. Something that the reality of, probably would have been too stressful to bare. And trust me., at sometimes that is exactly how it’s felt… “to stressful to bare”. Storm Wisdom came into existence during a very transformational time. Many business were going virtual. They were giving up the expenses of maintaining physical locations and going online. Many had to, in order to compete with Amazon and the technology trend of shopping online. But it has also been a time when people were becoming more aware of the desire and impact of supporting local business and local artists. People started looking for products and services that were more natural, healthy and unique.., crafted or created by local artisans and craft-people....

My Next Adventure

I want to tell you what I am up to! I have had a number of clients and friends who’ve commented or ask about my absence from Storm Wisdom. I have gone from being there 5 days a week, to an hour or two each week. When I am there, I am frequently in my office., as that is where the “admin” stuff like payroll, accounting, and bill paying occurs. It is my way of keeping a finger on the pulse. I am not physically present.., but energetically I feed, nurture, and love Storm Wisdom… and the Storm Wisdom family as much as ever. Maybe even more. So I am still part of it, and it is part of me! However, more and more, my baby-business is growing up! It is becoming more and more independent. Gisela who manages the Center, along with Millie and Mary Helen who each provide their own unique signature and support have embraced their own version of owner/stewardship. They are an amazing team. So like any parent or guardian whose offspring is ready to strike out on their own, I have turned my attention back on myself. I began asking the question, “What’s next”? Last year I committed to being more present. Which as you know if you follow these weekly musings…, has been hugely transformative for me. It has allowed me to see how easily my mind (followed by triggered emotions) distracts and distances me from many experiences, by filtering it through projections into the future and anchors from the past. I am nowhere near the 100% mark for staying present… but I...

Dog with a Bone

Without a doubt, I am in a state of flux! My life is shifting and changing in ways I could not have imagined a few years ago. Yet, it is happening and I couldn’t be happier. Normally when I feel like everything around me is shifting and changing, it is because I am trying to achieve something. Trying to get something done! In the midst of my attempt to craft or create some desired outcome, I bump up against a wall. Or, something doesn’t go as planned. Whether it was easier than I imagined or harder. Either way I have to adapt and adjust to the circumstances. I struggle when things don’t go as I imagined. I visualize or intend a result.., and when it looks or feels different, I am spun around by the force of change. Chaos is not uncommon for me when I am in pursuit. A good metaphor for my determination would be ‘a dog with a bone’. However for the last 7 or 8 months my focus has been on staying present. Keeping my thoughts in this moment.., not six months from now. I have always known I have a “future-orientation”. As a result of consciously reminding myself to stay present… it has also become clear that I am also easily distracted by the past. Usually as a way to reinforce some limiting belief. Being present has been a huge gift. Although it feels chaotic sometimes too. Mostly because I have to self-manage my tendencies to overlay the past and future. Who knew it would require such attention for something that sounds so simple....

Factfulness

Where to begin! We live in a strange world, at a strange time in our history. The world and its challenges are so much more complex than they use to be. We are creating a global society based on dramatic changes in access to travel, communication, healthcare, technology, and information. For years I tried to keep up with current events, the news, and social change. I consumed information constantly and tried to put it into a context that made sense in my own daily life. However, the more internally reflective my life has become (read… spiritually oriented), the harder it is for me to correlate and coalesce all the news, images and information that we are bombarded with daily. At least with how I experience it in my microcosm of the world. We are exposed to content that is so dramatic, emotionally stimulating and draining (simultaneously!), and heavy at times. In fact a couple of years ago.., I stopped reading/watching the news for the most part. I read headlines and have conversations with people, but no longer devote a couple of hours a day to “being informed”. I couldn’t. It always made me feel out-of-balance. Always on edge.., or in a state of fear/anxiety. The other thing I noticed was, the more I paid attention to the idea of unity and oneness… the more the constant focus on duality in our daily lives really started to bother me. “Us against them”, right against left, Democrat versus Republican, rich against poor, White against Black, etc, etc.   It is downright uncomfortable. And yet it seems built into everything. There are...

Not the Time to Harvest

Spring is in the air and I feel it! I have this sensation of everything being completely new… yet the 3D world around me hasn’t changed… YET. Then I am reminded I am at the “beginning” of this new cycle. The planting and sprouting stage! This is a helpful reminder for me, because it engages me in the process of visualizing and creating what is new or emerging. Versus, waiting to see what it looks like or how things turn out! One of the things that has been most challenging for me during these beginning phases is that I tend to believe I have to bring the past with me. That who I was yesterday matters, because it is part of the whole. Part of me. The truth is… the past is behind us. It is how we got to where we are in this moment. There were hurdles and hurts, whirlwinds and wonder, mundane and madness. Our lives are full and complex, even when the journey seems to meander or even when it feels we’ve made a U turn. It is all part of our life experience. What I tend to forget, is that I don’t need every map, tool, and skill that I have ever used to get me to this point! I can set them down, instead of carrying them with me on this next leg of the journey. Instead, I can trust that new tools and skills will be available and revealed when they are needed. And the ‘me’ that encounters them will know how to use them. Or, at least be able to figure...

Wake Up

For quite awhile now, much of my focus has been on Intentional Living. Over time I have even developed a model or method for this which I have shared many times here on this blog. The eleven principles of living an intentional life that resonate the most for me. I live by these principles. Most of the time!! For the last week or two, I have also had numerous experiences of NOT being intentional…. Yet for some reason could only see this in hind-sight. This doesn’t mean I wasn’t getting clues and intuitive hits about what was going on. It means I wasn’t paying attention to them. Instead I was operating from a very unconscious place. Just walking along, not minding my business, only to discover I was creating circumstances and situations that didn’t line up with my beautiful life. In the past, these bumps in the road I would interpret as some sort of external anomaly, that was beyond or out of my control. Something I was a “victim” of… Yet.., because like you, I have been more and more aware of my own authority and reality creation, I knew there was something here to look at. Something to pay attention to. Why was this series of events happening? What is the lesson or here to be learned? In all of these circumstances, I wasn’t paying attention to my own preferences or desires. I wasn’t checking in with myself to see if something felt aligned or resonant. I was thinking of someone else first. In several of these situations, I put someone else’s comfort or preference ahead of...

The Resistance is Mine

Fain to create and move toward. Pursued, even stalked. Even a subtle drift of difference feeds a longing. Be it tempering, turn about or metamorphosis. Rapid or with the vicissitude of years. We author change, willing to transform.   Expansion, desire to learn, become more aware. Examining self to understand All. A journey that beckons to those who dwell near the abyss. Looking into the void with a knowing of more. Willing to venture alone into the mist. Trust that the more will be revealed or emerge. An understanding achieved through discovery. A new vista   So close it can be felt. A breath of dew grazing neckline, shivers palpable. Anew approaches.  Something prepared to emerge. Yet before it’s reveal, we gnarl in discomfort. Hideaway with insecurity. Longing for and pushing away simultaneously. It’s moniker – Resistance.   Do we know where this comes from? Do we know what it means? Could the dreams we’ve dreamt been wrong? Was something missed, or do we heed danger or folly? The answer to all is – No.   Resistance the partner of change. Regulator of speed, a signal of alteration. An internal reminder honoring that which is being abandoned. Celebrating what is, but will never be again. A necessity for integration.  Ally to initiation. Resistance, synchronous with our evolution. Necessary, and yet it still throws us a field.   The Resistance is mine....

It’s My Monkey-Wrench

I have just deleted the first line of this post and started over. I realized when I got the words on the page that they didn’t feel right. They are the words I use and even how I feel. But in writing them, they didn’t feel very empowered. So let’s find words that feel right and empowering too! We are learning and expanding Beings. We have chosen this time and place to take our Soul’s journey to the next level. To expand our own level of awareness and, in turn, expand the consciousness of All-That-Is. Often it feels that our focus is external. That our relationships, jobs, health, government, corporations, finances, etc.., are the drivers of our experience. However, the truth is those external circumstances are our creations. We use them as our playground.., or in some case the obstacle course for our internal evolution. We are here to become more – of Ourselves. And in this way, everything we encounter is “for” us. Even when we feel as if it is happening “to” us. We are right where we are suppose to be, encountering exactly what we want. Another opportunity to know ourselves in a way that we could not have known before. This is true whether what we’re encountering feels really rich and juicy… or extremely hard and challenging. We are creating the circumstances of our lives. We do this, always, as a way to expand. None of us came here to shrink or become less of ourselves. This leads me back to the beginning. The words that I wrote were “We are always taken care of…”....

Man in the Mirror

I was having a conversation yesterday with a friend who is going through a lot.  The end of a long term relationship.   Changes with their work.  Creating a new relationship with their body.  Even a possible move to another city. There are so many areas of their life that seem to be up in the air.  They were feeling the stress of it all.  Yet among the chaos there was another theme that was also coming to the surface.  Without planning it, it was obvious, this was the ideal time to focus on them! It really got me thinking about how important it is for all of us to do the same thing. Not just when the ups and downs or challenges of life are upon us.  But all the time.  To take care of ourselves and stay current with who we are and who we are becoming. Like so many of us, my friend is very comfortable in the role of giver.  Especially when it comes to family and friends.  But when the circumstances change, are we prepared to give to ourselves? Most of us would never consider ‘rushing’ one of the important people in our lives, through a grief or healing process.  Yet, are we willing to give ourselves time?  When someone close to us has a need, we step in and try to accommodate.  Would we spend or give the same to ourselves? We get so busy navigating the day-to-day and keeping the plates spinning that we forget to stop and assess whether or not those plates are even ours to spin anymore.  They might...

Ideal Crystals for Cleansing and Clearing

The following are popular and easy to find crystals that you can work with to cleanse and clear your space or your energetic field. Let me start by saying this: I truly believe that there are as many different ways to work with crystals as there are people. Anyone can intuitively connect with a crystal and figure out how it will most effectively support them. With that said, sometimes it is easier to find information that someone has already written based on their own experience. If what is written here (or in book your reading) resonates with you… go for it! If it doesn’t, let it go and wait until something else presents itself! Now, to the subject at hand. There are a number of crystals that have properties that support clearing or cleansing your space and or energetic field. The ones that I rely on the most are Selenite, Black Tourmaline, and Himalayan Salt. Before we get into the specifics about these crystals I would like to share my perspective of negative energies. For me, energy is energy. It isn’t good or bad, or.., right or wrong. It just is. That said, there are energies that resonate with us and feel aligned. There are others that don’t. Think of energies as being a part of a continuum. On one end are the ones that feel harmonious and aligned with our own energies. The energies near the center of this continuum often feel neutral or trigger very little reaction one way or the other. The rest, on the other end of this spectrum or continuum, are disharmonious or even...

Guilt Be Gone

You’ve probably noticed I don’t really edit my writing. It is a bit of a thought dump…, and if I really took the time to edit for grammar, punctuation and spelling, it would be too much of a task or burden. It would take me so long to “get it right”, that I probably would have given up on writing a long time ago. I do usually take one good look for those glaring mistakes – which I still sometimes miss anyway. The process is like this… I write…, I read it out loud to myself or Fito. Fix any obvious problems and then send it off to my trusty tech-guy Paul, who then gets it into the right template/format. When the entire newsletter is done, I get it back and do a review and approval… and send it off for publishing. What I found last week when I re-read the article (Ebb and Flow) after it was in the final format, was that I feeling ‘guilt’ while reading it. As if my present circumstances seemed too luxurious or like I wasn’t doing enough. I wasn’t “working hard enough”. Or maybe I was just being lazy. I have to say I was a bit surprised. I hadn’t noticed the guilt before that…, but once I did, I realize it has been there since I made the decision to step back and take this time for myself. So on the one hand I am thrilled about giving myself this time to be… on the other I feel guilt. These two are incongruent. They actually work against one another. The thing...

Ebb and Flow

It feels a little bit weird these days writing these articles. I have stepped away from the business of running Storm Wisdom and I’m really only there a few hours a week (at the most) Gisela, Millie and Mary Helen are running the place and actually have been in that role for a long time. For the last few years, I have been doing the accounting, bill paying, payroll and those sort of administrative duties. These functions only require a couple of hours a week at the most. This means I am finally realigning my time to match my effort. What that means when it comes to these newsletters is that I am not having all the juicy conversations that naturally come up when you’re in a spiritual center. I am not interacting with and learning from all the visitors, clients and friends who walk through the front door. These interactions were the catalysts for so many of the posts I have written in the past. Not being as engaged has shifted or changed a lot of that. AND.., I am spending more time alone. I have been hiking everyday. And that is the most consistent thing I can boast about or claim. It is cathartic and enjoyable… but it does not inspire the level of self-reflection that being inside the walls of Storm Wisdom does. Everything feels weird. But it also feels right. I love what I have created. I love what we have created. I am no less passionate about its success. But energetically supporting it and physically being there are two different things. I am in...

The Beauty of Transformation

Maybe you’ve noticed the banner below regarding ‘Casita Serena’. This is the guesthouse we originally built for my mom.., Ruthie. She lived here for just over 10 years. After her passing, we decided to convert it into a vacation rental. This is all new to us. And everything feels different! There is some work involved in setting up a space for guests. Everything from furniture, towels and linens, amenities, decor and even setting up the systems and calendars for this type of endeavor. The biggest adjustment is how to share your space with new guests, who for the most part, you don’t know. Of course the services such as AirBnB or VRBO do a lot of the screening and verification. But the truth is, we don’t know much about them till they arrive. Every guest (or group) is different. Knowing how to interact, what to offer or even recommend is a bit of a shot in the dark. You can’t know, until you know! You can hope you are hitting the mark. Yet in truth, you basically go into each rental with fingers crossed! However, what has surprised me the most, is how all this change has been so easy to adapt to! I knew it would be a bit easier for Fito as he co-owned an actual Bed & Breakfast before I met him. The truth is not only have I adapted.., I am quite enjoying the experience. Mind you it as only been a couple of months and a half dozen guests, but I can already feel the impact. It is as if I experience my home...

Magic is in the air!

Magic is in the air! Actually, magic is ALWAYS in the air. Sometimes we just need to pay attention. It is a bit like our intuition or should I say intuitive senses. We are all intuitive, but the more we pay attention to (and trust) these senses, the more they reveal themselves. This is true for magic too. We are always working with the energetic field that surrounds us. We are connected and an integral part of this unified field. Yet so often we feel disconnected or separate from it. As if we are going it alone! Harmony with the field is our natural state. However, our thoughts, beliefs, attitude and perception can often feel more powerful. It is easy to believe we are alone or disconnected from everything going on around us. Sometimes it feels like we “almost” grabbed the “brass ring”. It feels like something we want is within reach. It is right there, but we can’t quite put our hands on it. Rather than recognizing that this is something within us that is preventing that thing from manifesting.., we begin to feel like it is the Universe working against us. As if we are separate or on different sides. That is never the case. As we begin to own our power and authority… we begin to shift. We have more and more awareness of our connection to the energies around us… to All-That-Is. We begin to see how our behavior, habits, and patterns are preventing us from realizing our dreams. We begin to see that struggle is an internal perception that is a major component of...

Time To Live It

I have invested a lot of time and energy into getting to know myself as a spiritual being. It started as a part of what was likely a mid-life crisis. One that I didn’t realize I was in the middle of! I had a good life. Good job, friends, travel, home, and stuff. By all accounts, I was “successful”. But in the middle of all this success… there was still something missing. A longing. I was living my life…, but to what purpose? I had spent so much time trying to get where I was going, I forgot to ask ‘why’ I was going! I guess in someways it was societal… simply part of the time or generation I’m part of. My life looked good on paper because that is what we were taught or saw valued. Either way, I found myself in search of greater meaning. For the first time (consciously), I began looking inside for answers. Uncovering beliefs and attitudes that affected my every decision. Searching for meaning by dissecting my thoughts and feelings and their origins. Unmasking fear. Understanding the origins of pride and arrogance. Coming to terms with the magnificence and the mediocre of my own reality creation. Actually… maybe it was finally understanding that we all have ownership and responsibility for what we create in our day-to-day lives. I have been so invested in the pursuit of purpose and finding the spiritual being within; that it’s possible I missed that I actually “found myself”. The journey of self-discovery can be amazing. It can also seem never ending. But is that true? I have become...