Everyone always asks me “How’s it going?” at Storm Wisdom. My reply is almost always the same – “Good. Things are good.” But lately as I say it… I realize it always feels as if we are just getting by. We are making it.
“Making it” or “getting by” is really hard sometimes.
Mind you I am not complaining. Well not too much anyway! I am thrilled that a business that is 7 years old is still paying the bills. But in my mind, I always imagined that by this point in the evolution of my business I would be feeling the freedom of growth, expansion and increased income. I imagined I would create all forms of abundance.
You see Storm Wisdom has helped me create a TON of abundance. Expanded family, friends and clients. Experiences. Beauty, magic and mystery. I also know myself at a much deeper level. Which for someone who is committed to expansion and understanding , this is a big, darn deal.
But I don’t want to stop there. I don’t want to stop where we are. I want to expand, expand, expand in all the ways that expansion is possible. I want to see my community expand as well. I am not in it for me alone. I want us all to expand. To be and have as much as we can possibly receive.
I feel like I am ready. And yet, there is still a veil between me and the next level of whatever I am creating. Is it that there are still lessons I need to learn on this plateau? Is there something I am resisting?
I have a lot of experience creating abundance. I have (and in someways still do) created wealth. And at the time it was a major motivator in my life. Making money was what got me out of bed in the morning. It shaped most of the decisions I made. I valued it above all else.
Unfortunately that version of me is gone. Money is not enough. Not as a motivator. I desire it as an outcome. I want it in my life. But not at any cost. I would not give up what I have for any amount of money.
Someone asked me a short while ago if I would consider a new opportunity if they guaranteed me a lofty income figure. And I said no. I would do it if it looked and felt like my current business. I know I am doing the right thing. I also know that at some point we will bust beyond this current plateau.
I guess in the meantime.., I need to keep looking for the nuggets of truth in this ‘getting by” or “making it” phase. At the same time, I am trying not to get stuck in a groove of just getting by. Even as I type this I realize that if this is the path I am destined for.., I will find acceptance for that too. I would prefer to imagine that soon we will be soaring and “making it” will be a phase I remember fondly!
I hope if you are attempting to soar, the wind accelerates beneath your wings!
With Light, Love, and Laughter
Charles
So beautifully written Charles!
Thanks Jenna. I appreciate that!
Beautiful, worth waiting for Charles, just as the grand expansion, the new paradigm are, and the experiences are made more savory by the desire and delayed gratification.
Fingers crossed Vikki! I am feeling lots of desire. Now to savor that!