Lately I have been invited to look at how my mind affects the outcome of my day. This is of course, not the first time I have been on this track. I am familiar with it, and it feels well traveled. So why am I here again?
I tell friends and clients all the time: “you can’t believe everything happens for a reason, only when it is convenient.”. Along the same line, I also believe I am responsible for the circumstances of my life. So, how is it that I get caught up in a mind-spiral for several days on end, and not even be aware of it?
In the most recent circumstances, I decide I want to create something new~I am ready for a change. I start to visualize it in my mind and begin identifying the steps it will take to create this new dream. I begin to feel the essence of what this shift or change will mean. I heighten my desire for the outcome and I am on my way!
Who knows how it happens, but even as I feel the rightness and realness of this new dream, I introduce “what if”. “What if this person says no” or “what if it costs more than I thought” or “what if…”. So all the while I am feeding my dream, I am also polluting it!
By the time I realize I have had my mind on a “what-if-hamster-maze”, I have already exhausted my mind and created knots in my stomach. It is as if I won’t allow myself to dream with out analyzing all possible outcomes and mitigating any and all risks! True desires come from hearts… mine just have to traverse my mind on their way to reality! As incommodious as this cycle is, I seem to be determined to master it! I find myself circling this familiar track and realize it is all in my head!
As I litter my dreams with distortions and fear, Life is unfolding exactly as it should. I am guided and blessed. Everything is happening for a reason and I am responsible for the circumstances for my life. Now if someone could get me out of my own way, that would be a big help!